This world is my maze
Lost and confused
Time is not on my side
Frozen
Like a deer caught in headlights
This is so aimless
Wandering, wondering
Looking at busy people
I want to run
But its like panicking
In a dream
Is this a dream
It all seems so unreal
One day long ago
She seemed so real
Sunday, May 17, 2009
Sadness
I know Ive let you down
I am made sick by indifference
I cant roll back time
To gentler days
I cant change the weather
Waiting for the sun
Seems like forever
Frozen in my pain
Ashamed of my need
Or is it just greed
I become like those I despise
Hating myself,my apathy
I didnt plan this to be
After all that work and pain
Am I slowly drivng myself insane
Faith has disappeared
And I know what I could never be
It all conspires against me
So blatantly
Fear and struggling
Like a soldier in a mudfilled trench
This endless solitude
Falling through the cracks
Slowly but surely
The loneliness attacks
I hate these times
I cant roll back the years
Only look at pictures
And reread your letters in tears
I am made sick by indifference
I cant roll back time
To gentler days
I cant change the weather
Waiting for the sun
Seems like forever
Frozen in my pain
Ashamed of my need
Or is it just greed
I become like those I despise
Hating myself,my apathy
I didnt plan this to be
After all that work and pain
Am I slowly drivng myself insane
Faith has disappeared
And I know what I could never be
It all conspires against me
So blatantly
Fear and struggling
Like a soldier in a mudfilled trench
This endless solitude
Falling through the cracks
Slowly but surely
The loneliness attacks
I hate these times
I cant roll back the years
Only look at pictures
And reread your letters in tears
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
Still Life
Its so quiet here now
Where hours ago was laughter and song
It seems strange to say
To watch silence and shadows
This Still life
I walk slowly through life
Its a minefield, I"m wary of strife
Jelousy,envy,ego, greed
Things blow up for no reason
The tongue is a fire
That starts an inferno for a season
Seasons change, but my world
Always seems to get colder
I am treading through a minefield it seems
Did I make someone mad or sad or glad
Wandering, wondering
Running from things that bring joy
People and laughter.
I wonder what I do
To upset, to placate,to endure
Sadness, gladness,madness
So confusing
I am the author of my life
Yet fate and chaos
Is always there
Where hours ago was laughter and song
It seems strange to say
To watch silence and shadows
This Still life
I walk slowly through life
Its a minefield, I"m wary of strife
Jelousy,envy,ego, greed
Things blow up for no reason
The tongue is a fire
That starts an inferno for a season
Seasons change, but my world
Always seems to get colder
I am treading through a minefield it seems
Did I make someone mad or sad or glad
Wandering, wondering
Running from things that bring joy
People and laughter.
I wonder what I do
To upset, to placate,to endure
Sadness, gladness,madness
So confusing
I am the author of my life
Yet fate and chaos
Is always there
Thursday, January 1, 2009
The Background
I want
To stay in the shadows
Live in the background
Roam empty highways
And paths less travelled
I crave ,
Solitude and silence and the sublime
The crowds were never my joy
To perform has never been a ploy
My dream,
To see an angel like you
Caressing the crowd with your voice
A beauty that surpasses understanding
To watch heaven unfold in your songs
My desire,
To be there for you
You and your little ones
The hurting one who deserves so much better
To stay in the shadows
Live in the background
Roam empty highways
And paths less travelled
I crave ,
Solitude and silence and the sublime
The crowds were never my joy
To perform has never been a ploy
My dream,
To see an angel like you
Caressing the crowd with your voice
A beauty that surpasses understanding
To watch heaven unfold in your songs
My desire,
To be there for you
You and your little ones
The hurting one who deserves so much better
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